namiss ko magpost dito sa blogger hehehe. i think i won't ever leave blogger... kasi dito lang ako nakakapagtagalog ng husto heheh. sa isa kong site kailangan minimal lang. para mabasa ng lahat. andito rin mga friends ko sana nman minsan magblog sila. SANA NAMAN KAHIT MINSAN LANG. iniiwan nila ako dito. shet nman o.
HOYYYYYYYYYYY ASAN NA KAYO?! JO-JOIN JOIN KAYO PERO NDI KAYO NAGBBLOG heheh. JOWK. pinilit ko ba kayo sumali!? kasi nman para ndi ako lonely =.( hmp!
sino gus2 maging part/member ng blog ko? para ndi ako mag-isa dito hehehe.
HI JOHANNA. BUTI PA C JOHANNA NAGSASALITA! SI GEE AT SI DIANE! NAGSASALITA! PERO UNG IBA NA MEMBERS MISMO NG BLOG NA TOH! NDI! KINALIMUTAN NA AKO! HMP! heheh. oy minsan lang ako magdrama... pagbigyan nyo na.
kailangan ko na palitan skin ng blogger ko. nagsasawa nako hehehe. sige.. papalitan ko na! mwah! sana umayos lang noh...hehehe. ayoko na ng palpak...
forever blogger
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
gifts
Friday, December 23, 2005
thanks johanna for the gift! aheehee...touching nman. ung iba pang mga gifts... nasa isa ko pang site. anyway... thanks guys. napapakalma nyo ako hehehe. honga... easy lang dapat ako... pero kasi andaming mga peste sa buhay talaga eh. grrrrr! i swear malapit nako magbago ng cell number. shit. anyway... merry christmas to all! mwah!
no matter what OK?
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Wala nman ako ginagawa ngayon kundi i-train tong mga papalit saken na mga teddy bear designers. Hehehe. Pero nakakatuwa naman kasi... nakikinig sila saken ng husto. And nong tinuruan ko sila sa Premiere... nong 2nd time na nag-edit na sila ng video...maayos na talaga. Altho may konti pang pwedeng ayusin... ok na rin naman. What a success.
Shit. Ndi pa rin ako tinatantanan ni Ms. X. Dati bitch ako...ngayon "Biatch" na daw ako. I swear. Is she tryign to be funny? Natawa kasi talaga ako nong nabasa ko na tinawag nyako biatch. Kasama ko pa nga baby ko non. Tinanong nya saken ano tinext ni bruka. Ayun. Biatch. I mean hellurrrrrrr... ndi kita seseryosohin dyan. Para ka lang nagpapatawa. And seriously hon... it's getting old already. Tama na. Mghanap ka nman ng ibang insulto. Tangina.
And please lang... quit whining!!! Move on. Ako pa bitch ngayon. Sino kaya namba-blackmail...I mean... how!? How do you think you can gain love if you blackmail someone?! You blackmail him so he would love you back again?! NASISIRAAN KA NA BA NG BAIT?!?!? STUPIDEST THING TO DO. Magisip-isip ka naman! Pramis! Pasalamat ka mahal ko baby ko... kaya ndi kita pinapatulan... pasalamat ka may konti pako respeto sayo at kaya ko pa magpigil... kung wala lang ako pinag-aralan... sinungalngal na kita at inupakan na kita...
Tumahimik ka na pwede?! No matter what you say... no matter what you do...NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS... NO MATTER WAT FUCKIN HAPPENS... NO MATTER WHAT B-I-T-C-H...... ndi ikaw ang masusunod. There's more to life than just bitching and whining dahil ndi mo na makukuha pa uli gus2 mo... move on dear. MOVE ON.
Shit. Ndi pa rin ako tinatantanan ni Ms. X. Dati bitch ako...ngayon "Biatch" na daw ako. I swear. Is she tryign to be funny? Natawa kasi talaga ako nong nabasa ko na tinawag nyako biatch. Kasama ko pa nga baby ko non. Tinanong nya saken ano tinext ni bruka. Ayun. Biatch. I mean hellurrrrrrr... ndi kita seseryosohin dyan. Para ka lang nagpapatawa. And seriously hon... it's getting old already. Tama na. Mghanap ka nman ng ibang insulto. Tangina.
And please lang... quit whining!!! Move on. Ako pa bitch ngayon. Sino kaya namba-blackmail...I mean... how!? How do you think you can gain love if you blackmail someone?! You blackmail him so he would love you back again?! NASISIRAAN KA NA BA NG BAIT?!?!? STUPIDEST THING TO DO. Magisip-isip ka naman! Pramis! Pasalamat ka mahal ko baby ko... kaya ndi kita pinapatulan... pasalamat ka may konti pako respeto sayo at kaya ko pa magpigil... kung wala lang ako pinag-aralan... sinungalngal na kita at inupakan na kita...
Tumahimik ka na pwede?! No matter what you say... no matter what you do...NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS... NO MATTER WAT FUCKIN HAPPENS... NO MATTER WHAT B-I-T-C-H...... ndi ikaw ang masusunod. There's more to life than just bitching and whining dahil ndi mo na makukuha pa uli gus2 mo... move on dear. MOVE ON.
I hate Uma.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
I posted this from my other blog...but I just want to post it again... kasi tuwing naaalala ko si Lolo (Uma)... kumukulo talaga ang dugo ko. Here's what happened last Thursday.
My boss talked to me regarding my resignation. It really didn't go well. He called me unprofessional because I'm leaving so soon.
AMF...
Look... I told him about my whole Canada thing 2 months ago... did he do anything?! Did he recruit new people in our department? We used to be 5 in our department (2 web designers, and 3 mobile application designers, but all of us are graphic artists... so I'm one of the mobile app designers — we call ourselves MADs).
Anyway, one of the MADs left just last month. So 2 na lang kami. 1 of the web designers left rin and joined the ex-MAD who just left last month. So now we're down to 3. I told HIM about my situation 2 friggin' months ago. But did he do something about it? Like... I don't know... maybe find my replacement? Maybe... let me train some of the designers here for our sister company... make them do some real designing instead of just deleting the backgrounds of teddy bear images?!
Yes. Believe it or not... that's just what they do. Imagine, Winnie The Pooh. There are series of images of Winnie... I think it's about 16 images max... Winnie turned 360 and every image is one angle of him just sitting in the middle of a pedestal... of some friggin studio. Now... these designers use the ERASER tool in Photoshop to delete the white background... actually... DELETE everything except Winnie. This includes skill as well because Winnie's fur must stay intact. Thou shall maintain the fur. Thou shall maintain the illusion of fur.
That's not all. This is just one batch of images. Next batch... Eeyore. Next... Piglet. LOL. The whole gang! Not just Winnie and the gang. There are all sorts of teddy bears and teddy animals. I edited a teddy rat. LOL. There are teddy dolphins... teddy cows... teddy bird. ???
Enough with the teddy stuff. So... instead of them wasting their skills on teddy stuff. Why not give them real work right?! After I told Uma (coz he looks just like UMA) my situation, my direct supervisor told me to prepare training documents. And that's what I did. Still... no replacements to train. He seems to be calm.
I thought I could give my resignation now and leave the company by January... that was my first plan. But everything seemed to happen too fast... things change... many factors to consider... I have to leave ASAP. I know it's my fault... I know I should have passed my resignation paper last month maybe. But I didn't know that things would not go my way. Plans do change. And it's not like I have a choice whatsoever. I cannot control this.
But then... UMA tells me... "No... I'm tired of this... you should've done this... that... we don't have a replacement you should know... it's not organized and you should have done this... and that..."
It's MY FAULT that your company is sooo disorganized? It's MY FAULT you don't have an honest to goodness HR department? And that you depend on your secretary and receptionist to do the recruiting for you? Because you have no money to invest on a real HR person?
I told him, "Sir are YOU blaming ME for the recruitment..." -- then he cut me off... sensing probably that it was not my fault.
Damn right it's not my fault. What an ass!!!
He had all the time to find a replacement... but did he budge? And now he's blaming me why everything is so fucked up and now he has to find a replacement. HELLO!!! EARTH TO UMA. Shouldn't you have thought of that 2 months ago??? And now you're telling me I'm not even thinking about the company? Call me unprofessional if I mentioned the visa when I just handed my resignation paper. Call me insensitive. Call me a fuckin bitch if you want for being so inconsiderate. But I told you this a long time ago and now I'm a bitch!?!?
FINE!
He's blaming me why I won't have time to train one of the teddy bear designers. He's blaming me for those people out there without jobs not having any interest whatsoever to replace me. He's blaming me for the last minute recruitment problem. He's blaming me why his world will suddenly be doomed. Awww... touching. But no... you said so many things and you turned out to be a hypocrite. It's only understandable why so many people want to leave you and the company.
BITCH! Can't you see a lot of your employees are leaving you because YOU are a hypocrite. You say I'm unprofessional? When you did not give my friend a bonus just because she's resigning from work? When it was already stated in the contract that you should give her the bonus if she completed her goals for the month? But no.. you're logic is so twisted and fucked up... she left without that PROMISED bonus. Not just promised... but AGREED UPON. He did not follow his own contract. Now who's unprofessional!?!?
Now I just can't wait to leave you and your sorry ass.
He wants his people to be efficient when he himself is not. 6 of my projects are pending. I finished them in time. But where are they?! STATUS: Waiting for validation. Who should validate? HIM. He and his bloody right-hand manager...crap. I won't even know if those projects will ever succeed. I won't even see them get published... if ever they get approved.
But he relies on me for those projects because no one else knows how to do them. Themes... videos... wallpapers... animated wallpapers... mobile flash applications... now where the fuckin hell are they? You just won't get inspired anymore if these people are not doing their job as well. You just won't get inspired to do another project (even if you just don't have a choice) because you know... at the back of your mind... you feel that these projects just won't push through.
2 of my projects that I worked on for 1 1/2 months were thrown away. Why? It turns out we don't have the license to use Cosmopolitan logo. Idiots!!!! They should have made sure that we can use the fuckin logo first. RIGHT?! Stupid....
Enough. Bad trip talaga. Sa sobrang inis ko nong day na yun, I did not send my End-of-the-Day Report, where I state what tasks I have finished for the day. Fuck! Eh wala naman ako ginawa talaga eh. Except meeting up with him... and then meeting up with my direct supervisor alone, venting on what's sooo fuckin wrong with Uma. Nagbuhusan kami ng sama ng loob namin sa isa't isa about Uma. Pano. Wala siyang kwenta!
I don't care what happens to him. I will do my part because naaawa ako don sa papalit saken. Pero sa kanya, wala nako pakialam sa kanya. Aalis ako sa end of December. And that's it. Gagawin ko ang lahat ng makakaya kong gawin para matrain ung papalit saken. After that--GOOBYE.
My boss talked to me regarding my resignation. It really didn't go well. He called me unprofessional because I'm leaving so soon.
AMF...
Look... I told him about my whole Canada thing 2 months ago... did he do anything?! Did he recruit new people in our department? We used to be 5 in our department (2 web designers, and 3 mobile application designers, but all of us are graphic artists... so I'm one of the mobile app designers — we call ourselves MADs).
Anyway, one of the MADs left just last month. So 2 na lang kami. 1 of the web designers left rin and joined the ex-MAD who just left last month. So now we're down to 3. I told HIM about my situation 2 friggin' months ago. But did he do something about it? Like... I don't know... maybe find my replacement? Maybe... let me train some of the designers here for our sister company... make them do some real designing instead of just deleting the backgrounds of teddy bear images?!
Yes. Believe it or not... that's just what they do. Imagine, Winnie The Pooh. There are series of images of Winnie... I think it's about 16 images max... Winnie turned 360 and every image is one angle of him just sitting in the middle of a pedestal... of some friggin studio. Now... these designers use the ERASER tool in Photoshop to delete the white background... actually... DELETE everything except Winnie. This includes skill as well because Winnie's fur must stay intact. Thou shall maintain the fur. Thou shall maintain the illusion of fur.
That's not all. This is just one batch of images. Next batch... Eeyore. Next... Piglet. LOL. The whole gang! Not just Winnie and the gang. There are all sorts of teddy bears and teddy animals. I edited a teddy rat. LOL. There are teddy dolphins... teddy cows... teddy bird. ???
Enough with the teddy stuff. So... instead of them wasting their skills on teddy stuff. Why not give them real work right?! After I told Uma (coz he looks just like UMA) my situation, my direct supervisor told me to prepare training documents. And that's what I did. Still... no replacements to train. He seems to be calm.
I thought I could give my resignation now and leave the company by January... that was my first plan. But everything seemed to happen too fast... things change... many factors to consider... I have to leave ASAP. I know it's my fault... I know I should have passed my resignation paper last month maybe. But I didn't know that things would not go my way. Plans do change. And it's not like I have a choice whatsoever. I cannot control this.
But then... UMA tells me... "No... I'm tired of this... you should've done this... that... we don't have a replacement you should know... it's not organized and you should have done this... and that..."
It's MY FAULT that your company is sooo disorganized? It's MY FAULT you don't have an honest to goodness HR department? And that you depend on your secretary and receptionist to do the recruiting for you? Because you have no money to invest on a real HR person?
I told him, "Sir are YOU blaming ME for the recruitment..." -- then he cut me off... sensing probably that it was not my fault.
Damn right it's not my fault. What an ass!!!
He had all the time to find a replacement... but did he budge? And now he's blaming me why everything is so fucked up and now he has to find a replacement. HELLO!!! EARTH TO UMA. Shouldn't you have thought of that 2 months ago??? And now you're telling me I'm not even thinking about the company? Call me unprofessional if I mentioned the visa when I just handed my resignation paper. Call me insensitive. Call me a fuckin bitch if you want for being so inconsiderate. But I told you this a long time ago and now I'm a bitch!?!?
FINE!
He's blaming me why I won't have time to train one of the teddy bear designers. He's blaming me for those people out there without jobs not having any interest whatsoever to replace me. He's blaming me for the last minute recruitment problem. He's blaming me why his world will suddenly be doomed. Awww... touching. But no... you said so many things and you turned out to be a hypocrite. It's only understandable why so many people want to leave you and the company.
BITCH! Can't you see a lot of your employees are leaving you because YOU are a hypocrite. You say I'm unprofessional? When you did not give my friend a bonus just because she's resigning from work? When it was already stated in the contract that you should give her the bonus if she completed her goals for the month? But no.. you're logic is so twisted and fucked up... she left without that PROMISED bonus. Not just promised... but AGREED UPON. He did not follow his own contract. Now who's unprofessional!?!?
Now I just can't wait to leave you and your sorry ass.
He wants his people to be efficient when he himself is not. 6 of my projects are pending. I finished them in time. But where are they?! STATUS: Waiting for validation. Who should validate? HIM. He and his bloody right-hand manager...crap. I won't even know if those projects will ever succeed. I won't even see them get published... if ever they get approved.
But he relies on me for those projects because no one else knows how to do them. Themes... videos... wallpapers... animated wallpapers... mobile flash applications... now where the fuckin hell are they? You just won't get inspired anymore if these people are not doing their job as well. You just won't get inspired to do another project (even if you just don't have a choice) because you know... at the back of your mind... you feel that these projects just won't push through.
2 of my projects that I worked on for 1 1/2 months were thrown away. Why? It turns out we don't have the license to use Cosmopolitan logo. Idiots!!!! They should have made sure that we can use the fuckin logo first. RIGHT?! Stupid....
Enough. Bad trip talaga. Sa sobrang inis ko nong day na yun, I did not send my End-of-the-Day Report, where I state what tasks I have finished for the day. Fuck! Eh wala naman ako ginawa talaga eh. Except meeting up with him... and then meeting up with my direct supervisor alone, venting on what's sooo fuckin wrong with Uma. Nagbuhusan kami ng sama ng loob namin sa isa't isa about Uma. Pano. Wala siyang kwenta!
I don't care what happens to him. I will do my part because naaawa ako don sa papalit saken. Pero sa kanya, wala nako pakialam sa kanya. Aalis ako sa end of December. And that's it. Gagawin ko ang lahat ng makakaya kong gawin para matrain ung papalit saken. After that--GOOBYE.
hehe...
Friday, December 16, 2005
re layout error... sorry, i meant the new layout sana na gagamitin ko. so binalik ko toh kasi ung gagamitin ko sana... may mga images na hindi lumalabas. sowee hehehe. baka gamit na lang ako ibang layout. more Christmas-y hehe. Wuv ya guys.
under construction
Thursday, December 15, 2005
something's up with this layout. it's not working properly and i don't know why................. intay lang kayo. BRB.
my station
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
awww...shaks... mamimiss ko station ko sa office.... i took this pic using N70 ata... dito sa opis yun eh... anlaki nya kumuha ng pic ah... kasinlaki ng desktop ko ung picture... pede ko na gawing wallpaper. niresize ko pa tuloy...ayan.
top (from left to right): Stitch keychain, Hero (the durug dog LOL), my doggie calendar, and Chance (bigay saken ni baby ko anjelo back from ambergris days pa...heheheh. c anj din ngpangalan sa kanya nyan kz, 'by chance' daw nya nakuha yan... ewan ko don anlabo hahaha...)
ndi nman ako mahilig sa dogs noh?! hehe. mamaya na yung christmas party namen!!! whoopeeee! wala pang 5pm eh nagaalisan na sila! aalis nako baka maiwan pako! bukas uli!!! heheh
christmas alphabet
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
bukas na christmas party namin...dpat friday pa eh! minove dahil sa mga taga-netopia. panu..ung pinaka-bossing namin... sya may-ari ng netopia ata sa cavite (?)... eh isasabay yung mga YON sa christmas party namin. lima lang naman sila pero KAHIT NA. bakit ba? eh kami mas madami bakit kami kailangan mag-adjust for them? napa-aga tuloy.
problema...meron pa kami christmas presentation... we'll make our own spoof or parody song nung Christmas Alphabet.
last year kasi, yung ex ko (pinaka-bossing namin dito sa work -- we call him lolo or Uma kasi kamukha nya c Uma sa PinoyBB hehe...) ay namigay ng i-Pod mini. binigay nya sa ka-exchange gip nya. ABA! kaswerte ha. inggit akuuu =.(
so sa Christmas Alphabet...nilagay namin sa "I"... "I - is for the i-Pod that Sir ******* will give again" LOL. eh 10 kami per team. so bawat isa samen may line na kakantahin. saken napunta yang "I" na yan. hahaha. sana saken mapunta nga ang i-Pod video...sana yun ang ibigay nman nya this year. mayaman naman sya...kahit tinitipid nya kaming mga hamak na web designers lamang.
saklap nito lahat nung higher-ups namin na lahat foreigners eh ka-team ko. isa briton... isa indiano... isa chinese... isa french hahaha. aliw ito.
ndi ako racist ha... pero aliw kasi sila. lalo na ung indiano... pag nagsasalita sya parang nasa "under the sea" sya kasi ambilis magsalita... parang bubbles lang naririnig ko. pero sbi nya, british english sya ha. KUNO. ung briton nman...medyo manyak. so dapat conservative suot ko bukas.
first line nung kanta namin, "C - is for *(PANGALAN NG KAPATID NI LOLO na heart throb and fave ng lahat kasi tahimik at uuuuuuuber sa gwaping...pati mga lalaki nababading sa knya LOL)* who is our hottest CTO."
napunta tong line na toh dun sa chinese naming ka-team na hirap mag-ingles pa. lalaki sya ha. hahahaha. gudluck sa kanya. baka isipin ng asawa ko (kapatid ni lolo) nababading na rin sya sa kanya. last year ndi kasama asawa ko sa party eh. buti nman this year kasama sya. may pagkakataon nakong mahalikan sya. LOL. sana yun ang award pag nanalo kami as 1st place dito sa presentation namin. sila ang judges eh.. c lolo at ung asawa ko. kikindatan ko sya habang kumakanta ako hahahah. luto na toh. luto! upakan ko sya pag ndi kami nanalo. JOWK. hehehe.
bkit kaya tahimik c anj... =.( im so sad i miss him pa naman. =.( i miss him... magsalita ka by!!!!
problema...meron pa kami christmas presentation... we'll make our own spoof or parody song nung Christmas Alphabet.
last year kasi, yung ex ko (pinaka-bossing namin dito sa work -- we call him lolo or Uma kasi kamukha nya c Uma sa PinoyBB hehe...) ay namigay ng i-Pod mini. binigay nya sa ka-exchange gip nya. ABA! kaswerte ha. inggit akuuu =.(
so sa Christmas Alphabet...nilagay namin sa "I"... "I - is for the i-Pod that Sir ******* will give again" LOL. eh 10 kami per team. so bawat isa samen may line na kakantahin. saken napunta yang "I" na yan. hahaha. sana saken mapunta nga ang i-Pod video...sana yun ang ibigay nman nya this year. mayaman naman sya...kahit tinitipid nya kaming mga hamak na web designers lamang.
saklap nito lahat nung higher-ups namin na lahat foreigners eh ka-team ko. isa briton... isa indiano... isa chinese... isa french hahaha. aliw ito.
ndi ako racist ha... pero aliw kasi sila. lalo na ung indiano... pag nagsasalita sya parang nasa "under the sea" sya kasi ambilis magsalita... parang bubbles lang naririnig ko. pero sbi nya, british english sya ha. KUNO. ung briton nman...medyo manyak. so dapat conservative suot ko bukas.
first line nung kanta namin, "C - is for *(PANGALAN NG KAPATID NI LOLO na heart throb and fave ng lahat kasi tahimik at uuuuuuuber sa gwaping...pati mga lalaki nababading sa knya LOL)* who is our hottest CTO."
napunta tong line na toh dun sa chinese naming ka-team na hirap mag-ingles pa. lalaki sya ha. hahahaha. gudluck sa kanya. baka isipin ng asawa ko (kapatid ni lolo) nababading na rin sya sa kanya. last year ndi kasama asawa ko sa party eh. buti nman this year kasama sya. may pagkakataon nakong mahalikan sya. LOL. sana yun ang award pag nanalo kami as 1st place dito sa presentation namin. sila ang judges eh.. c lolo at ung asawa ko. kikindatan ko sya habang kumakanta ako hahahah. luto na toh. luto! upakan ko sya pag ndi kami nanalo. JOWK. hehehe.
bkit kaya tahimik c anj... =.( im so sad i miss him pa naman. =.( i miss him... magsalita ka by!!!!
i'm sorry...
Monday, December 12, 2005
nag-away kmi ng baby ko... as in grabeh... last saturday hanggang sunday night. shet... that really scared me and stressed me out.
sunday mga 12pm ata hanggang 8pm... i turned off my cell, but before i did, i sent him a txt saying... na baka nga ndi ko sya vinavalue... coz he said i don't know how to value him... so i sed maybe he should get rid of me. then i turned off my cell...
that really made me cry...A LOT. i was so down... worried... scared.
i don't know kasi how he will react... or IF he would ever react pa...
my lola just arrived that same day... sunday afternoon yon... and yun i realized... no more tenchu kami ng baby ko =.( it's so sad to think... kasi it would just be really hard to pull off... as in... say goodbye to tenchu forever... because my lola will be staying sa haus hanggang makaalis kami for canada.
and then nag-away pa kami ni anj. i admit... i said so many hurtful things sa kanya. kasi kawawa nman c mango (bes ko). but anj was sick kaya hindi nya kami napuntahan ni bes noong friday. pero wala man lang kasi syang txt ni isa... tapos ndi pa sya nakarating. so hindi ko lam ano nangyari. so i was embarrassed. and sumabog ako and said so many harsh words kay anj the following day.
...i know he was hurt. then i realized maybe i really don't value him... he was right.
but when i turned my cell back on... bandang 8pm nong sunday... nagdatingan lahat ng txts nya... nagpanic ata... =.( i was so ashamed... so sad but happy na rin in a way na he still cared and he was also apologizing... =.( i love him so much.
buti na lang... we never ended "US". he said he was sorry... and i said kasi, how can he love someone who disrespected him and who he thinks doesn't know how to value him? and he said, he only said that (na i don't value him nga daw) out of anger daw and he was hurt kasi... buti na lang talaga... we still manage talaga to save our relationship... kahit we're really on the brink of breaking up... we still realize we can't live w/o each other. i also apologized to him ng sobra... and then he said, "let's not fight like this ever again"
he always asks me... if i love him. and then when i say i do... he says, "how much?" kasi nga naman, i love you so much diba... so by... finally, i know how much. almost all the time, i'm lost for words kasi... ndi ko lam isasagot sa tanong mo. i found this saying... sa isang libro... na ibibigay ko sayo... before i leave for canada.
This is how much I love you...
Think of something you couldn't live without...
And multiply it by a hundred.
Think of what happiness means to you
And add it to the feelings you get on the best days you've ever had.
Add up all your best feelings and take away all the rest
And what you're left with is exactly how I feel about you.
You matter more to me than you can imagine
And much more than I'll ever be able to explain.
I love you so much baby ko.
sunday mga 12pm ata hanggang 8pm... i turned off my cell, but before i did, i sent him a txt saying... na baka nga ndi ko sya vinavalue... coz he said i don't know how to value him... so i sed maybe he should get rid of me. then i turned off my cell...
that really made me cry...A LOT. i was so down... worried... scared.
i don't know kasi how he will react... or IF he would ever react pa...
my lola just arrived that same day... sunday afternoon yon... and yun i realized... no more tenchu kami ng baby ko =.( it's so sad to think... kasi it would just be really hard to pull off... as in... say goodbye to tenchu forever... because my lola will be staying sa haus hanggang makaalis kami for canada.
and then nag-away pa kami ni anj. i admit... i said so many hurtful things sa kanya. kasi kawawa nman c mango (bes ko). but anj was sick kaya hindi nya kami napuntahan ni bes noong friday. pero wala man lang kasi syang txt ni isa... tapos ndi pa sya nakarating. so hindi ko lam ano nangyari. so i was embarrassed. and sumabog ako and said so many harsh words kay anj the following day.
...i know he was hurt. then i realized maybe i really don't value him... he was right.
but when i turned my cell back on... bandang 8pm nong sunday... nagdatingan lahat ng txts nya... nagpanic ata... =.( i was so ashamed... so sad but happy na rin in a way na he still cared and he was also apologizing... =.( i love him so much.
buti na lang... we never ended "US". he said he was sorry... and i said kasi, how can he love someone who disrespected him and who he thinks doesn't know how to value him? and he said, he only said that (na i don't value him nga daw) out of anger daw and he was hurt kasi... buti na lang talaga... we still manage talaga to save our relationship... kahit we're really on the brink of breaking up... we still realize we can't live w/o each other. i also apologized to him ng sobra... and then he said, "let's not fight like this ever again"
he always asks me... if i love him. and then when i say i do... he says, "how much?" kasi nga naman, i love you so much diba... so by... finally, i know how much. almost all the time, i'm lost for words kasi... ndi ko lam isasagot sa tanong mo. i found this saying... sa isang libro... na ibibigay ko sayo... before i leave for canada.
This is how much I love you...
Think of something you couldn't live without...
And multiply it by a hundred.
Think of what happiness means to you
And add it to the feelings you get on the best days you've ever had.
Add up all your best feelings and take away all the rest
And what you're left with is exactly how I feel about you.
You matter more to me than you can imagine
And much more than I'll ever be able to explain.
I love you so much baby ko.
Motorola RAZR V3x
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Waaahh... I can't wait!!! I wanna buy this one!!!
Motorola RAZR V3x (click link below for more images of the phone...)
SUMMARY OF FEATURES:
- Sleek streamlined housing with large, vivid color external and internal displays
- 2 megapixel camera with 8x zoom, macro mode setting and , LED
- VGA camera for 2-way video calling*
- Bluetooth wireless technology* supports wireless stereo sound through Motorola's Bluetooth Stereo Headset and other compatible Bluetooth enabled accessories for hands-free communication
- Up to 512 MB of removable optional TransFlash™ memory
- Motorola's SCREEN3 technology solution featuring zero-click access to news, sports, entertainment, and other premium content.*
- Progressive downloading to view media files on demand
- Support of AAC+, MPEG4, WMV, WMA, MP3 and Real Video/Audio files
- Advanced speaker-independent voice recognition: state a number/name and be connected without pre-recording
- Over the air synchronization with the PC via SyncML*
- WAP 2.0 browser*
The Motorola RAZR V3x is expected to be available in Q4 2005. For more information regarding pricing and product availability in your region, please contact your local Motorola representative.
hot and bored
Monday, December 05, 2005
the friggin ac here in the office is not working... my flinx host suspended my account... anj is being secretive again... and i'm not doin anything again (w/c should make me happy... but i'm not happy sorry) so yeah i'm pretty darned pissed right now.
anu ba... diba?
happy birthday to mango mah bes!!! december 6 happy happy birthday bes!!!!!!!! awabshu!
i bought my own domain!!! wooopeee. but it will be activated after 24 hours pa... so... wala pa yan. i might transfer this blog over there na.... use wordpress and transfer you guys there as well.
medyo nagagamay ko na wordpress... ok nman pala sya.
i'm currently working on my personal/portfolio site... but what should i do pag activated na yung domain ko? should i keep that site... orrrr.... transfer it na rin sa domain ko mismo? waaah. i dono wat to dooo!!! =.(
eeniwee... bahala na c Lord. hahaha. ciao muna... ako ay magmumunimuni muna hahaha.
anu ba... diba?
happy birthday to mango mah bes!!! december 6 happy happy birthday bes!!!!!!!! awabshu!
i bought my own domain!!! wooopeee. but it will be activated after 24 hours pa... so... wala pa yan. i might transfer this blog over there na.... use wordpress and transfer you guys there as well.
medyo nagagamay ko na wordpress... ok nman pala sya.
i'm currently working on my personal/portfolio site... but what should i do pag activated na yung domain ko? should i keep that site... orrrr.... transfer it na rin sa domain ko mismo? waaah. i dono wat to dooo!!! =.(
eeniwee... bahala na c Lord. hahaha. ciao muna... ako ay magmumunimuni muna hahaha.
SNAP!
Thursday, December 01, 2005
aaaaaaagh. naiinis ako grabeh. AS INNNNNNN.
pu^%$#@!*ng babaeng un... tinetext pa rin ako hanggang ngayon! at tinawag akong bitch. yun lang ang text nya. "BITCH!" it's not that i was affected by being called a "bitch" because... honestly, it doesn't have an effect on me anymore... it's like a low blow you know? shallow. but what affects me is that she's still bothering me! me and my peaceful existence. me and my "would-this-day-get-any-worse" day (haha redundant). i already feel crappy. i feel bored. i miss anj. and now?????? KAILANGAN PA BA NYA TALAGA SABIHIN YON?
LIKE... DUH! YES I AM A BITCH. BUT YOU SAYING IT ONCE... is ok... ouch bitch daw ako. So I get over it. SAY IT TWICE... uhhh... OK FINE? SAYING IT FOR THE GAZILLIONTH TIME??? I MEAN... COME ON! GET A THESAURUS MY DEAR. WALA KA NA BA IBANG ALAM NA INSULTO?????
naiiyak ako sa sobrang pigil na pigil na emosyon. in english... i feel like crying because of pent up emotions... specifically... ANNOYANCE AND IRRITATION. get a life my dear! GET A MOVE ON ALREADY! pucha. i sooooooo wanna text her and tell her... WOULD YOU QUIT WHINING ALREADY?! I MEAN, SERIOUSLY. DON'T YOU HAVE A LIFE??? instead of making me as your venting post... SHUT UP AND REALIZE THAT THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN SAY OR DO TO CHANGE THINGS.
texting BITCH in all caps? Won't change the world honey!
JEEEEEEEZ! I swear. I can strangle someone right now. TANGINA TALAGA. sorry for the language but I'm really... REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF... nananahimik ako dito ah! Shet.
On a lighter note, nabuhay muli ang aking radio blog. My radio blog is up and running again and I've added 3 more songs.
I think that's the only good thing that happened today. Eh... whatever. Surely not enough to make me smile for days. FUCK. I feel like venting on someone tuloy... shit. I fear for anj... I might end up snapping on him. Bad.
pu^%$#@!*ng babaeng un... tinetext pa rin ako hanggang ngayon! at tinawag akong bitch. yun lang ang text nya. "BITCH!" it's not that i was affected by being called a "bitch" because... honestly, it doesn't have an effect on me anymore... it's like a low blow you know? shallow. but what affects me is that she's still bothering me! me and my peaceful existence. me and my "would-this-day-get-any-worse" day (haha redundant). i already feel crappy. i feel bored. i miss anj. and now?????? KAILANGAN PA BA NYA TALAGA SABIHIN YON?
LIKE... DUH! YES I AM A BITCH. BUT YOU SAYING IT ONCE... is ok... ouch bitch daw ako. So I get over it. SAY IT TWICE... uhhh... OK FINE? SAYING IT FOR THE GAZILLIONTH TIME??? I MEAN... COME ON! GET A THESAURUS MY DEAR. WALA KA NA BA IBANG ALAM NA INSULTO?????
naiiyak ako sa sobrang pigil na pigil na emosyon. in english... i feel like crying because of pent up emotions... specifically... ANNOYANCE AND IRRITATION. get a life my dear! GET A MOVE ON ALREADY! pucha. i sooooooo wanna text her and tell her... WOULD YOU QUIT WHINING ALREADY?! I MEAN, SERIOUSLY. DON'T YOU HAVE A LIFE??? instead of making me as your venting post... SHUT UP AND REALIZE THAT THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN SAY OR DO TO CHANGE THINGS.
texting BITCH in all caps? Won't change the world honey!
JEEEEEEEZ! I swear. I can strangle someone right now. TANGINA TALAGA. sorry for the language but I'm really... REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF... nananahimik ako dito ah! Shet.
On a lighter note, nabuhay muli ang aking radio blog. My radio blog is up and running again and I've added 3 more songs.
I think that's the only good thing that happened today. Eh... whatever. Surely not enough to make me smile for days. FUCK. I feel like venting on someone tuloy... shit. I fear for anj... I might end up snapping on him. Bad.
ME
