who would think... i would be this happy?! i hope this is not one of his schemes... and i hope this won't end.......

you know what happened?... God, i can't contain my excitement...!

..............i think my wish just came true.

now i'm starting to believe again that wishes do come true. HAHA!

OMG.

who would think i would be friends with his "original"?

just today, she and i talked....... for a very long time.

i used my cellphone... to think i had only P170 pesos worth of credit, but i needed to talk to her. in my gut i felt i needed to do it. and boy did i learn already that when your gut is telling you something... you should follow it immediately.

and VOILA! it all went well...... who would think it all went well.........?

....actually.......better than i expected?

i asked her if she was the one who emailed me... and she said yes. she said that it was her coz she put her name on it. but i told her, well... her beloved has a track record of using her name... so i just wanted to make sure.

and then... we started to talk... i also apologized and... i really felt overwhelmed... and that made me start to cry... and then i apologized to her... then she said, "no... it's ok really..."

and our whole conversation... it was really calm (well, maybe at first)... it was like two girl friends talking to one another about their problems...

she and i cleared up some stuff... no, a LOT of stuff... and it was nice...

it was so much fun talking to her... really. i felt like i was talking to myself...

well...not really. i mean... what i mean is...

oh who gives a damn anyway...

the most important thing is that we SHARED A LOT of things... shitty things he did to US.

BOTH OF US.

and it's like, when she and i talked... we healed each other's wounds... the wounds we all shared.

i should've given her more credit... i thought she was dumber than me. good thing i was wrong.

and then the most incredible thing happened...

i heard him in the background!

i laughed when she said, "i'm talking to nikki!.....she told me everything..." then she was still talking to him, she said... "........what for? what do you mean what for? you already know what its all for!"

and i was cursing and laughing at the same time, i told her, tell him this... tell him that... and she complied.... and she passed my messages to him...

HAHAHAHA!

oh yeah........ and she told me all sorts of other lies that he told her...

OMG! the nerve of that guy i swear! i wonder how he could still sleep soundly every night after all the shit he did to all these people...

or maybe that's his problem....... he's trying so hard for other people to care about him so that in times like these... he'll have some fall back...

yeah that's another thing... the words i'm thinking in my head... she'll say it for me first... it's like we have the same wave length.

anyway, now i feel so good. i really do.

i can't believe how happy i am.

but i know, i won't be celebrating soon UNTIL that bastard really goes down.