i read his post... saying "someone" didn't accept him for who he is... and maybe he LOST that "someone" because he's different... and that it sucks to be different... and he said that acceptance is a must and that all is fair... and in order to care, you must be a sponge and absorb...

he has a point....... but...

all i can say is this...

there is a fine line between accepting someone for who he is and realizing that you have crossed the line... way too far already.

i don't know if he knows... but one of the major reasons why i loved him is because... he IS different...

and i still do love him intensely...

i am NOT ashamed of what he has done... in his past... and what he's been through...

and not all is fair... that's why life is very challenging...

if ever you read this... i love you and i care for you deeply. i just hope you understand everything that i wrote here in this post.

and the reason why i tell him to "straighten up" is.... i care for him so much... that it hurts.

i cannot possibly just tell him every single thing he's done is fine and i cannot just support them wholeheartedly. yes i can understand...

BUT... he has to understand ME as well...

i understand his side... but i hope that he knows... i'm just here... and i'll always care... and i hope he would care about the fact that i care about him... coz it seems like... he doesn't care too much on just about anything anymore...

i hope his coldness would stop... i hope that, even for a second... he would stop and realize and feel what others feel about him... so he could understand what's really going on...

i hope i could tell all of these to his face real soon...