it sucks pala...wen u find out that your best frend has kept some things from you for two fuckin years... everyone knows and yet moi, her supposed best frend, was the last one to know. that's just greeeaaatt. i feel so special now. hahaha! a friend of mine told me... that maybe i wasn't always present for her to share those stuff with me...but hell...that was like 2 years ago! we wer all back in college, and most of the time i'm always with her! and now my friend tells me, maybe she's not ready to tell me yet. oh but she's soo ready to tell everyone and ready to lie to my face! that's just... fucked! if i'm what she says i am...which is her best friend, then she should know and trust me well enough that even if she does stupid things, that i'm still gonna be on her side, to support her and stay w/ her and defend her... even if she did something stupid, yes. but what she did that was really stupid was... she didn't trust me... HER BEST FREND! then i must not be her best friend... and all this time, we were just pretending. does it hurt? of course it hurts! what if i do the same thing to her? what if i tell everyone about me and my baby, and i tell the rest not to tell my best frend. 2 years after, if ever there will be a reunion, when the topic of boyfriends comes up... since we're all on that topic, i'll say to her, oh by the way, i have a boyfriend... i didn't tell you coz i was SHY. or for watever reason that would be. everyone knows and yet my best frend has no clue watsoever? isn't it ridiculous?? it is... and so... what's going on here?? last tuesday, she says that i'm her best friend in front of my other friends and yet, she just revealed something that was 2 yrs old and everyone knew...and i looked like a complete fool. tangina yan. kakairita pramis. lokohan lang pala ito... ndi pala seryosohan tong best frend best frend...
i told my friend... best frends share almost anything... they KNOW each other... they TRUST each other... if there's no trust, what is our friendship all about then? should our friendship be based on presence and visibility? 4 years of friendship wasted just because im not always VISIBLE to her? i've tried a couple of times to mit up w/ her... but she gives me all sorts of excuses... no time... no money. as if i have all of that too. but you know what, i MAKE time... i will make time... i'll make a way. coz i wanted sooo badly to talk to her. coz she's my best friend. and now this is what she does to me? i believed something for soo long and then one day you realize that all this time, you were wrong. i believed she was my best friend...but i'm starting to doubt if that is true... and if that's what she really feels. i thought love with the opposite sex can be painful... i realized..... it's more painful when you're dealing w/ ur frend... especially is she's your best friend. or is she?
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Comments for bes frend daw... psssh!
babe...babe oh babe... hehehe.. dont doubt on your friendship... she'll always be your best friend... she has her own reasons why she didnt tell you... you could respect her decision for not telling you that b4 or you could make a big fuzz about it and just let everything that you two have, fade away bec of a past that wasnt mention to you...
... she could have forgotten that she didnt mention it to you or she didnt have the guts to tell you, instead she just assumned that you'd react to that situation in a way... in a way that you usually do... (freaked out... :D hehe ) that she wasnt ready for ,that time...
but you do have the right to feel hurt... she's your bset friend... but dont make a big fuzz about it... its the past... her past! and i'm assuming that she dont want to talk about it that much anymore (it's not a good memory to be rememberd) or make a big fuzz about it again...AGAIN!... :D (sino ba ang may gustong magungkat ng di magandang nakaraan at buhayin ulit yun? and cause another unpleasant situation to deal with.)
just try to talk to her that you feel that way when you learnd about it ... and explain her that you dont have a narrow mind not to understand things like that and try not to freak out or raise voice when you hear situations beyond your expectations...
i know that you are a very understanding, caring person... and i never thought that you'd be some how liberated... and thats the point ... there are times that we dont know the deeper other side of a person even she / he is our best friend....
... forgive and forget... the situation... ... and move on together.. :d
... she could have forgotten that she didnt mention it to you or she didnt have the guts to tell you, instead she just assumned that you'd react to that situation in a way... in a way that you usually do... (freaked out... :D hehe ) that she wasnt ready for ,that time...
but you do have the right to feel hurt... she's your bset friend... but dont make a big fuzz about it... its the past... her past! and i'm assuming that she dont want to talk about it that much anymore (it's not a good memory to be rememberd) or make a big fuzz about it again...AGAIN!... :D (sino ba ang may gustong magungkat ng di magandang nakaraan at buhayin ulit yun? and cause another unpleasant situation to deal with.)
just try to talk to her that you feel that way when you learnd about it ... and explain her that you dont have a narrow mind not to understand things like that and try not to freak out or raise voice when you hear situations beyond your expectations...
i know that you are a very understanding, caring person... and i never thought that you'd be some how liberated... and thats the point ... there are times that we dont know the deeper other side of a person even she / he is our best friend....
... forgive and forget... the situation... ... and move on together.. :d
- Posted at 9:32 AM | By
Anna "ej" Constantino
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